Beautiful

I think that Keira Knightley is one of the most beautiful women in the world. I believe I've watched almost every movie that she has been in. She doesn't seem too flashy to me and most pictures I found she didn't seem to be wearing a ton of makeup.
About 6 months ago I decided not to buy any new make up until I was completely finished with the make up I have in my bathroom. It's difficult when I get Ulta emails daily with the newest trends and coupons. But so far I've stayed true to my commitment. This made me wonder how many women out there have tons and tons of make up they never use? I looked up some statistics and women spend an average of $13,000 in a lifetime on makeup. The survey also stated 70% of women won't leave the house without makeup. One in 5 women stated there boyfriends have never seen them without makeup, even in bed.
What are we afraid of? Don't get me wrong I wear makeup and I try to make it as natural as possible. Its been easier since I left my job to be ok with going out without any on. I want to feel beautiful too but make up isn't going to do that for me. What makes me feel beautiful is when my friend calls me a sweetheart because I volunteered to watch her boys. Or when a friend tells me she cried because I sent her a thoughtful card. Even when my son says "Mommy, your beautiful", right when I've gotten out of bed with no make up and my hair looks like Medusa. I want my character to be beautiful, I want people to describe me as caring, loving, and fun.
What do you find beautiful?

Cleaning out the Junk

This picture literally grosses me out. Today we went to the store and loaded up on fruits and veggies. I actually made vegan ranch dressing. My breakfast was steel cut oats with almonds, strawberries and blueberries. It was delicious, the pilot made it before I got out of bed. I've traded my coffee for tea, that won't be as difficult to give up since I only drink one cup of coffee a day. And I usually dump the last couple sips of it in the sink. Lunch was a veggie burger on top of a salad of greens, tomato, and avocado with my home made dressing and an apple. I also did an hour on the elliptical.
On Sunday I cleaned out my closet, I put away the cute summer outfits and started a bag of clothes to take to goodwill. The pilot just started cleaning out our cupboards of any bad food so we aren't tempted to eat it.
This made me think, what other junk do I have in my life? Negative thoughts, was the first thing I could think of, how about you?

Live to Eat

If you haven't noticed from any of my previous posts, I love food.  I don't like diets because they seem to always restrict the things I love the most. Like sugar and carbs. The pilot just recently purchased this book Eat to Live. I thought I had finally come to the conclusion that I was fine with my body and my weight, until a couple days ago the pilot mentions he just happened to have lost 5 pounds. I asked him how and he had no idea. Really how is this fair?? AND I have to mention that he is only weighs a few pounds more than me and is 6 inches taller. This was my setback, all that positive self talk went out the window. I have asked him not to tell me anymore how much he weighs.
Which leads me to finally making a change. I have no excuses, no job that is keeping me busy. I know deep down I'm just lazy. Does anyone really admit to that? I want what's easy and I want to eat when I'm hungry.
My friend told me yesterday that it takes at least 6 months for our bodies to adapt to change and for us to see a difference. What the??? Great I have no patience, I want it to happen over night. So here it is, I'm going to start tomorrow which is Tuesday. Or maybe I'll start Thursday after the Halloween party on Wednesday. Ok, I'm lazy and I have no willpower. I've asked the pilot to help me so we will see how that goes. Did I mention he is out of town quite a bit?? Ok back to one day at a time, I'll let you know how it goes....

Saturday

I certainly didn't think when I was younger that a fun Saturday night would be listening to my son and his 2 friends chat with each other.  I will refer to the one that is his same age as the negotiator. The negotiator has been an expert at not eating dinner, he will give every excuse possible to get away from the table to go play. I took this on as a challenge of course, this little one was going to eat his dinner and I was going to win. The first curve ball is he tells me he is full, ok well he has had 4 bites of his dinner so I know this isn't true. The next one is "I don't eat crust". I have to mention he just told me 45 minutes prior that he loved crust. I told him that he couldn't leave the table until he was done with dinner. Next one, the sauce is now cold. I solved this one by re-heating his food in the microwave. Last try was "I have to go to the bathroom". This one I don't mess with, I let him go but he did know that he still had to finish his dinner when he was done. It only took 45 minutes but this little boy finished his dinner, I WIN!!!! Really.... this is my Saturday evening, getting excited that I won in a "fight" with a 5 year old.....

Where was it?

Sunday morning as I was ironing my dress, my puppy decided to chew something of mine. When I walked in my room I saw that he was chewing on my over-priced Victoria Secret bra. At least I know he has good taste. I wasn't incredibly upset by any means, but he had been doing so well not chewing on our stuff. He likes shoelaces and occasionally will grab one of D-boy's toys. Since I was a little bummed I decided to send a text to the pilot. I simply said the puppy ate one of my bras, awesome. His response was "Where was it?" I knew exactly what he meant and I'm not sure why he even asked the question. He should've just said "Jody, if your bra was on the floor it is your fault the dog chewed your $45 bra". I should've known to send the text to one of my girlfriends, because they would have the response I was looking for, something like "That really sucks but now you get to go to Victoria Secret and shop for a new bra". The very next day I received a coupon in my email for $15 off of 2 bras, so I guess it was time for me to get some new ones. Also I'm waiting to send that text that says "The dog ate your shoe" and when he asks me where was the shoe, I will simply reply "It was on the floor".....

If only I looked like that..

I think sometimes we can be our own worst critics. It seems every time I get back into working out I want to see results asap. If I've done a body pump class when I get home I should have rock hard abs, my biceps should be like Madonna's, and my figure should be perfect. If these results don't happen soon enough for me then I quit. Because why am I putting all the effort and work in, if nothing changes?  I have to admit I do feel better afterwards and I have more energy. But that can only sustain me for so long, I need to see results and I need to see them now. The weight loss doesn't happen very quickly for me either. Just around the corner is Thanksgiving and Christmas. Lots of baked goods and yummy foods. This year Thanksgiving is at our house and I'm telling you right now I'm not holding back. I may even fill up my plate twice. 
Yesterday at church I took a couple notes, I usually don't but I had invited a friend and she was taking notes so of course I had to. At the very end of the service the pastor put on the big screen "Stop comparing yourself to others". I needed to see that and hear it. I don't compare myself when it comes to "stuff" that other people have but I certainly do when it comes to my body. Once I saw that I realized I do need to stop comparing myself. So many women out there are different shapes and sizes, I should be happy with my own. There isn't anyone out there that is exactly like me.  From now on I'm not going to look at what I don't like but what I do. Because I know if my friend was having any body issues that I'd encourage her and tell her how wonderful she looks. Now I need to start doing the same thing for myself. 

Me + Body pump = pain

I just came home from a body pump class, let me tell you I do not feel unstoppable. I feel like taking a 2 hour nap. I also have to admit today was the first time I skipped the abs and stretch portion of the workout. I really didn't like the teacher today. She sounds like a drill sergeant, she spends the entire workout yelling at us about our form. No one in the class is new so we get it, she always follows up with "well I don't mean to harp so much but I want you guys to get a good workout and not get hurt". This isn't boot camp, stop yelling at me. All of the other teachers are able to teach the class without yelling at us. Also their are no classes today after her class so their is plenty of time to put our equipment away. However in her class she splits up the room and makes us put other people's stuff away. I don't want to do that either! Yes I'm selfish when it comes to this, I brought my equipment out I can put my own stuff away. Did I mention she was wearing a scrunchy? Ugh. I think I'll stick with the teachers I know and I like.