When D-boy started school on the second day he told me "Mommy, I know what God wants you to do", which he followed up with "He wants you to help people". As much as I'd like to think he received some sort of divine intervention on my behalf, the reason he told me this was because I helped a little boy find his classroom. The 1st grader had been sitting all by himself crying and not knowing where he was supposed to go. I think we all struggle with that big question "What is my purpose?" I know I have a family that I want to be here for and take care of, but I still have that part of me that doesn't know the answer to this question. It amazed me that my 5 year old could tell me so easily what my purpose could be, to help people. It was also a little overwhelming, what if God really does want me to help people, where do I start?
When I first quit work I thought I had to figure out what I was going to do with myself. Its been 4 months and I've managed to be busy the whole time. My little part of volunteering was taking the puppies in last week. But I haven't done much else. I do love that I walk my son to school daily and I don't have to drop him off at before or after school care. I love that I can go to a concert on a Wednesday night and not worry about getting up early the next day. I don't want to get lazy though. I do need to help people, I want my son and my husband to be proud of me.
On this crazy road of life, I hope one day I will know what my purpose is...
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