I feel like maybe I should just keep driving and not take the exit of change. Its been 4 weeks and I'm back at only a 5 pound weight loss. I've exercised at least 5 times a week and continue to follow the Eat to Live plan. Now the challenge is to continue. Its strange its not like I have any particular cravings, I think I just need variety. Breakfast is easy, but the focus is on so many vegetables that I've started to want something different. I tried to inspire myself the other day by taking a picture of me with my bikini on. I'm hoping in another 4 weeks I can take another picture and actually be able to see a change. Its difficult when I see myself every day and I can't tell if my body has changed or not. It probably doesn't help that the pilot's schedule has really sucked the last couple of months.
My friend pointed out today that its kind of like a honeymoon when he is home, then when he leaves it feels lonely. I suppose my comfort before may have been food or an evening drink. However those things don't really make me feel better anymore. The easy thing for me now would be to quit, go to a drive thru get my buffalo chicken sandwich, fries, and strawberry shake. But this time I'm not going down that path. I'm tired of quitting, I'm tired of being disappointed in myself for not trying a little harder. Several years ago when I worked with a personal trainer she would let me have one free day. A day where I didn't worry about calories or the nutrition of what I was eating. I may go back to that after the 6 weeks is done. I think the true challenge for me is to figure out what my balance is going to be. What depressed me the most about this book is according to Dr. Fuhrman (the author), I should weigh 111 lbs for my height. Which means I weigh 30 lbs too much! We are going out of town in a couple weeks, thank goodness. I need to focus on something else, on somebody else, on anything else.
According to the BMI weight chart, I should weigh between 125 and 169 for my height of 5'9". I would look dyslexic at that weight! Don't pay attention to that stupid book or chart, the important thing is to feel good and have a weight that you feel comfortable with. I currently weigh 215, I've recently lost 21 pounds by exercising and dieting, my goal is to weigh 190. I feel great at 190 and would not want to lose more weight than that.
ReplyDeleteThank you! Sometimes I get to caught up in the number and not how I feel. I can tell with my jeans that I've slimmed up already. That is AWESOME you've lost so much weight!! Keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteOops, meant anorexic LOL.
ReplyDeleteWhats funny is I didn't even notice till you said that. Maybe I'm dyslexic for not noticing!
Delete111 lbs? Seriously? You'd be a twig! Jody, you are healthy and beautiful just the way you are. I think you would be happier if you just ate a cookie and except that you are doing what you should. The scale is just a number Jody. Love yourself <3
ReplyDeleteCheddar! Thank you for the words of encouragement. Don't worry I do love myself ;-) I feel great now that i've seen that exercise and eating healthy has really changed my body and how I feel daily. As soon as I stopped worrying about the scale, the pounds started to come off. I don't want to be 111 that is for sure. I'd miss my butt too much :-) And honestly I've been eating this way for over 2 months, I no longer have the cravings I had before. And yes I have a cookie or cupcake every once in a while.
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