Let me start this by saying I love my life. I truly enjoy all of the moments with my family. As I've said before deciding to leave work was the best decision I've ever made. Now having said that I have no idea what my "dreams" are for myself. More than anything I get stressed when I think about what I want to be when I grow up. Or when I hear "pursue your dreams and you'll be happy". The honest truth is I have no idea what my dreams are and I'm happy. Some days I wish God would just send me a letter "Dear Jody, this is what I want you to do". Now if my Dad saw this he would say "Jody He did write you a letter, it's called the bible". Ok I get that but I want something more specific. Like I want you to volunteer at this place because you will have the most impact. Or I want you to reach out to this person because they could use your laughter in their life. The pilot used to ask me if I could do anything what would it be. Well I'd probably go to a beach, put my feet in the sand, and soak in the sun all day. I don't think that was the answer he was looking for and I wish I had a better answer. For now my dreams are that my husband and my son are happy. I want D-boy to be sweet, loving and caring. I hope he sees that his mommy is happy no matter what. He isn't at an age he has to worry about what he will be when he grows up. Truthfully I envy that sometimes. Maybe someday I will discover what my dream is and in the mean time I'll keep enjoying my family.
Society says that you need to have a dream, a plan and follow it. But sometimes, people have no idea what it is. and I respect that. Sometimes, I just let things unravel. In God's time, yes. I wish you well Jody.
ReplyDeleteThank you, I appreciate your kind words. I at least know that one dream I have is to be a happy family and I strive for that on a daily basis :-)
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